What the... I speechless

I am damn pissed off... I couldn't believe why I have such a "good" "U"... I am always proud to be part of the team... I have a team of full committed workers supporting me... Bunch of cute colleagues... I am quite happy with all I have... but why "U" landed on my working career???? A small black dot makes my white cloth ruined!!!

What are "U" trying to hint??? "If you don't want to work in this factory then tell me..."... "You want me to fire you???"... "If you cannot perform, why I need you in the department... I will transfer you to other department..." "I transfer alot people to other department before..."

OK... "U" are the big boss... and really bossy... I duno what to say... I feel so down... When I saw my colleague face expression... nod the head... The look... Sorry I don't have good EQ... When I am very angry, I will just try to avoid any other interaction with others... So that I don't lost my temper...

I did my best... put in all my heart into work... ended up with this... If it was "U" how "U" will think? "U" are one person I couldn't understand why so so so heartless... How people want to work under "U" for long period of time??? people said "U" did know about it... so? why not change? waiting for people to suit "U"? then... slow slow wait la...

Arghhhh................. Just wanted to release my tension and stresss!!!!!! Tomorrow will be another challenging day with "U"... haizzzz....  

Turning and turning point again

My night shift ended so sudden... Enjoyed it up to the very max... with no meetings to attend... no taruh taruh... nothing to afraid of... Breeze cold air cool my brain when hot oven air heated my head up... LOL

Another 2 more weeks of night shift was cut off... =.=" haizzz... Now turning point back to morning shift... DAMN!!!! If you see the time I post this post... I think you get what I mean DAMN... haha~ already get used to wake at night... now could get my self to bed... Feeling very very awake @@ 

Later will start my first day back to morning... the whole crazy routine will be waiting for me again... Night shift no routine... Everything is a surprise... Everything is a challenging... Morning is lagi more "challenging" =.= Short short 2 weeks of night shift passed... Wondering any chance for me to go back to night? haha... Some might think is mad... But really enjoy night shift... working with my assistant head to head solving problems is so amazingly cool...

Learning things you don't get to learn or don't really have the time to learn... keke~ another 2 more hours... hopefully I wont be half sleeping during my working hours.... >.<

night shift turning point

Gosh... A tiring day... 28 hour of sleepless day... 

The turning place I take my decision... Trying new personal experience where not much people will do or let's say so stupid to do...haha~ Working at night shift is not my 1st time but this time it will last for a long run... hehe~ The 1st day already almost tore me apart... What to do? My 1st night shift goes on with my big boss factory visit... Need to be around... 

Night shift... free from all the meeting... free from boss nagging... hunt by sleepiness, lack of peers support... How will I survive my left over night shift day? hmmm... enjoy? suffer? or.... who knows.... hahaha~ 

I'm back

It's time to revive my old baby blogs after abandoned it for about half an year... Announce that I'm back to the world of blogging... Just can't leave my habit...hehe~

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21/04/2012, 6.25pm

A loss

For 23 years from the day I was born, I was fated to be your grandson. I wasn't my choice but it was my pleasure. Although this 23 years was a long time but the time I spent with you was not long, it's too late for me to regret as there is no more chance to repay.

There is not much memory within me and you but the memory I had was the sweetest and always kept in mind. I was shocked when I heard the news, I was stunned, I never had anything in mind, I left the office without informing my superior. I was off my mind.

Saw your calm face, I felt happy for that. During the last walk beside you. I dropped my tears, I dropped my tears at last after 3 days beside you. Kept thinking of you telling us to be strong. I just couldn't handle my tears. 

Now you are far in distance, but near in our heart. May you rest in peace. 

A habit of mine

I don't like my comrades been treated poorly... You can scold me... you can say I am in the wrong... Just don't simply judge my comrade performance... I will just react abnormally when someone light up the torch!~ 

I am quite happy today... As my confidence returned... I gained back my comrades trust... The same old sentence..."Where there is support, I will gain my strength to continue " If you keep on discourage me, for sure one day I will leave... 

Internship coming to an end

3 months of internship... not too long not too short... Lecturer from UKM had came to evaluate me... gosh for this I truly duno how to answer her question...haha... Too many comparison among Top Glove interns here... What have I learn during this 3 months here? It's quite a tough question to me... Others doing R&D, I am not... Actually I requested not... They have things to present although some of it seems I know too and more... 

I really know I learn alot... but to mention what I had learnt seems a bit difficult and seems my lecturer don't much believe that I am sort of handling the production line...haha Who on earth will believe a HOF will put a internship person in charge of a production line... That's what I told her... from her eyes I see hmmm...haha... 

In this 3 months... 3 workers that I truly think is capable went back d... Manohari, assistant supervisor went back in my 1st month... I manage to learn some from him...^^ Suresh, another assistant supervisor went back recently... A dedicated person with many own thoughts and dare to voice... Ramjit, hmm a housekeeping leader? hehe... A talkative person, a person I scolded and fight back to me... aggresive one but when he wanted to go back he find me to tell... I really feel the warmness of him...haha... Another few more going back...

I knew I still had lots to learn... I might know some basic but still seems not enough...haha... I know what to do when somethings pop out... but when they question me, how much to add, want to add many Kg... wow, that really give me a tough time... some I base on experience...LOL 3 month experience don't seems can convince people...haha XD ... As long as I still not able to give a firm answer to their question means I still not good enough and much more to learn... At least for now, they starting to ask "opinion" from me... and I tried not to ignore them because I knew if I ignore them then that is the end of the story... As a superior to them, I need to respond fast to gv solution... that's the trust I am building... still building... 

As "half pail of water", I still tried my best to have a training session with them... try to give them a more proper system and try to understand their feeling... Which I felt what my current big boss is not into it... I have my way of leading people which is not his way... he want fast and efficient... mine for sure takes time... He want to build fear among workers... I want to build trust... haha... Trust is not build in a day, but fear can be set up in a day... trust leads to loyalty... fear leads to strike XD

My way and his way seems contrast in all ways... He try to prove his method is the best... I tried to prove him wrong... but he is the boss... let's see how my effort turns out to be...