Internship coming to an end

3 months of internship... not too long not too short... Lecturer from UKM had came to evaluate me... gosh for this I truly duno how to answer her question...haha... Too many comparison among Top Glove interns here... What have I learn during this 3 months here? It's quite a tough question to me... Others doing R&D, I am not... Actually I requested not... They have things to present although some of it seems I know too and more... 

I really know I learn alot... but to mention what I had learnt seems a bit difficult and seems my lecturer don't much believe that I am sort of handling the production line...haha Who on earth will believe a HOF will put a internship person in charge of a production line... That's what I told her... from her eyes I see hmmm...haha... 

In this 3 months... 3 workers that I truly think is capable went back d... Manohari, assistant supervisor went back in my 1st month... I manage to learn some from him...^^ Suresh, another assistant supervisor went back recently... A dedicated person with many own thoughts and dare to voice... Ramjit, hmm a housekeeping leader? hehe... A talkative person, a person I scolded and fight back to me... aggresive one but when he wanted to go back he find me to tell... I really feel the warmness of him...haha... Another few more going back...

I knew I still had lots to learn... I might know some basic but still seems not enough...haha... I know what to do when somethings pop out... but when they question me, how much to add, want to add many Kg... wow, that really give me a tough time... some I base on experience...LOL 3 month experience don't seems can convince people...haha XD ... As long as I still not able to give a firm answer to their question means I still not good enough and much more to learn... At least for now, they starting to ask "opinion" from me... and I tried not to ignore them because I knew if I ignore them then that is the end of the story... As a superior to them, I need to respond fast to gv solution... that's the trust I am building... still building... 

As "half pail of water", I still tried my best to have a training session with them... try to give them a more proper system and try to understand their feeling... Which I felt what my current big boss is not into it... I have my way of leading people which is not his way... he want fast and efficient... mine for sure takes time... He want to build fear among workers... I want to build trust... haha... Trust is not build in a day, but fear can be set up in a day... trust leads to loyalty... fear leads to strike XD

My way and his way seems contrast in all ways... He try to prove his method is the best... I tried to prove him wrong... but he is the boss... let's see how my effort turns out to be...

The working "Cow"

Everyday 7.00am wake... work till 6/7pm... The routine life... hmm... no complains about that, coz I enjoy the life like this... I like the job not because I undergoing a good life in the job... but on the other hand, I was facing quite a tough time at work... haha XD 

I love it when I know I was not alone... I am appreciated... The word "appreciation" means everything to me... My strength, my will, my determination, all come from ONE source... appreciation just like the "trust" Tan Sri mentioned, need to earn... but if keep banging on my weak spot, my "trust" towards you might just collapse... "Trust" is not thing that only works from top to bottom, it works the same for bottom to top... "Appreciation" is the main factor that affect the "trust" of your comrades...

I don't hesitate to work more... to work like a cow or an ant... as long as I am happy... my strength will not go exhaust... I learn fast, adapt fast and apply fast, you don't see that in me means you don't understand me... Once a rock is place in front, the road will be tougher and might just stop someone from advancing. Worst you might just kill someone determination. Learning is fast when practically involved and applied... "Afraid" and dare not bare the responsibility will only make the learning process slow...

I admit I am not too clever... I got not much creativity... creativity is not my strength... Keep on pushing on that part actually just make my strength to weaken... I not afraid of tired... I am not afraid of dirty... I am afraid of not being "appreciated"... I can be symbolize as a cow... a hardworking but without brains animal... You say I have no brains... I am fine... you say I am not doing my job, I couldn't accept because that is all I got... When my hardworking is bypassed, I am left with nothing... If you don't need a cow, you need a chimpanzee then I need to find myself a new home... XD

I like my direct mentor, I kinda love the working environment... I love the workers that work so hard and can see my effort... I don't have much problem with them and I see them as my comrades that fight along side myself, not a comrades that fighting for me... Hopefully one day, he will realize the importance of those comrades... and change some of his mind set... All human are similar... don't treat them as aliens just because they are foreigners... 

Hmm....cow? nah.... I still prefer my bear... hahaha XD