Tuesday, April 26, 2011

My last week in UKM

Suddenly everything comes and goes so quickly...It's my last week in my lovely UKM...haha~ Should I feel happy or should I feel sad? Happy to say... Finally I can escape from the study life... Hmm... but a good sign or a bad start still a mystery... but good to hear that the hectic exam and study for the long 18 years of study and exam has finally come to a "temporarily" fullstops. 

I think I gonna miss the study life... exam life? nah... Dun think I gonna miss that... UKM friends and buddies, it's time to say bye bye. It's hard to believe within such a short time, my feeling towards my activities in UKM really get have tight bonds... Now suddenly a "good bye" is such a hard word to say... I don't think I really get wonderful results in my 3 years of study in UKM... perhaps might not be my best but I did really work hard for it...maybe not hard enough. I just got da feeling I can do beyond that, so let's see what can I do this sem? 

Although it's not a wonderful result in d academic but I did not felt regret for that... I enjoyed my life in the university to the fullest... with all sorts of activities I held, I joined, I participated, I put my heart into... I learned I applied...I rethink and I review... The motto "where there is need, I will be there" drive me throughout my university life... Try to helps as many as I can... why? good question. I might not be so generous, help for no repay... but maybe I felt I need to do something to clear my sin, earn some deeds, hoping for a better life for my family. Whether one appreciate or not, it's non of our business... Do what's right, care no more than that.

A person I respect the most during my university life - not a lecturer but more to a mentor to me. Felo Chin, I would like to thank alot. A person with lots of thoughts and I made him my model actually. Always try to think beyond others, figures out small parts, thinking not only out of the box... I would like to say think in the box, out of it, bottom of it and lastly in between it...XD a box is a question, a problems... methods of thinking is the method of solving... there is more than 1 usually...^^ He teaches me by example... by the role he played, by the humor he shows... his smile was just too cool... gonna miss it.

KKM a place I stay for 3 years. No water, lousy wifi, expensive food, expensive rental... but I still stick here for these 3 years. I just couldn't put down my feeling towards the club... haha at last the day to say bye bye comes. I just simply love the club, don't ask me why. The feel is there... these complaints just couldn't affect my feelings...hehe~ now I just gotta wish the club good luck...

There's still some things to be settle... A last exam to go... and adios to UKM... we will meet again September...^^



Thursday, April 21, 2011

Getting Sleepless

Yet another sleepless night... On every sleepless night, I lay on my bed. Looking up at the ceiling where the fan spins, it goes round and round... Feeling the breeze of wind blow through the window... There goes the feeling again... A sort of pain which isn't the pain of wound... but it hurt more than a wound... A "wound" that will stays forever...


Every time I got an image of it... It's just hurts as much as it did when it was the time it happens. It just won't helps to pop out as I failed to went to sleep... Time is the medicine for everything as it says... so, I assume my medicine dose isn't enough yet to heal... 

Time to let go I said to myself... Time to wake up... 

hey! bullshit... It's time to sleep and dream...

So, it's time to sleep or it's time to wake up... What a difficult choice to make at such a time... still life goes on...^^

Saturday, April 16, 2011

Joker


Joker, a person that plays joke or prank for the sake of entertainment... When I say joker, most people will come out with Batman. So, the person that understand Joker the most is Batman? Bullshit... 

Who understand the joker? When even a joker can't understand himself... apparently NO. Going around messing up things, playing prank on others is entertaining himself or others? Does a  joker has a feeling? How the feeling of being played? Does he ever had one? ermm, HEART? He earns the smiles of others through the misfortune of another... If he was wrong, why others laughed? They don't have HEART either? 

That's humanity, we laugh when we thinks is funny. When we are the one that been laughed at, we get mad, we get hurt. Does this theory implies to our joker? Does he ever get hurt, get mad? He is the mask under his true self, he is too a man. He too have the feelings of others have... Just that jokes are jokes... so, why so serious?

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

Bad friend


A friend that doesn't care much about you... Always critics about you... Made fun of you in front of everyone... Never laugh along side you but always laugh when he felt you are funny... bullying you no matters what time what day what situation... Hurts your feelings, so? He never cares... He is such a terrible friend. Have you meet such friend? Bet you have...

How many friends can this bad friend have? who is the unlucky one to be friend with him? A person that only know how to critics, push you down the cliff when you are so meant to jump... friend, huh? 

Haha... so? It's me... a bad friend... no matter how the earth turns... how many years pass by... I am still the person that will keep bomb and shoot... This is me... A fact that will never change... Accept or not it a decision ... Sorry if I disappoint you...  

A bad guy a bad friend... a terrible person...ME~