A loss

For 23 years from the day I was born, I was fated to be your grandson. I wasn't my choice but it was my pleasure. Although this 23 years was a long time but the time I spent with you was not long, it's too late for me to regret as there is no more chance to repay.

There is not much memory within me and you but the memory I had was the sweetest and always kept in mind. I was shocked when I heard the news, I was stunned, I never had anything in mind, I left the office without informing my superior. I was off my mind.

Saw your calm face, I felt happy for that. During the last walk beside you. I dropped my tears, I dropped my tears at last after 3 days beside you. Kept thinking of you telling us to be strong. I just couldn't handle my tears. 

Now you are far in distance, but near in our heart. May you rest in peace. 

A habit of mine

I don't like my comrades been treated poorly... You can scold me... you can say I am in the wrong... Just don't simply judge my comrade performance... I will just react abnormally when someone light up the torch!~ 

I am quite happy today... As my confidence returned... I gained back my comrades trust... The same old sentence..."Where there is support, I will gain my strength to continue " If you keep on discourage me, for sure one day I will leave... 

Internship coming to an end

3 months of internship... not too long not too short... Lecturer from UKM had came to evaluate me... gosh for this I truly duno how to answer her question...haha... Too many comparison among Top Glove interns here... What have I learn during this 3 months here? It's quite a tough question to me... Others doing R&D, I am not... Actually I requested not... They have things to present although some of it seems I know too and more... 

I really know I learn alot... but to mention what I had learnt seems a bit difficult and seems my lecturer don't much believe that I am sort of handling the production line...haha Who on earth will believe a HOF will put a internship person in charge of a production line... That's what I told her... from her eyes I see hmmm...haha... 

In this 3 months... 3 workers that I truly think is capable went back d... Manohari, assistant supervisor went back in my 1st month... I manage to learn some from him...^^ Suresh, another assistant supervisor went back recently... A dedicated person with many own thoughts and dare to voice... Ramjit, hmm a housekeeping leader? hehe... A talkative person, a person I scolded and fight back to me... aggresive one but when he wanted to go back he find me to tell... I really feel the warmness of him...haha... Another few more going back...

I knew I still had lots to learn... I might know some basic but still seems not enough...haha... I know what to do when somethings pop out... but when they question me, how much to add, want to add many Kg... wow, that really give me a tough time... some I base on experience...LOL 3 month experience don't seems can convince people...haha XD ... As long as I still not able to give a firm answer to their question means I still not good enough and much more to learn... At least for now, they starting to ask "opinion" from me... and I tried not to ignore them because I knew if I ignore them then that is the end of the story... As a superior to them, I need to respond fast to gv solution... that's the trust I am building... still building... 

As "half pail of water", I still tried my best to have a training session with them... try to give them a more proper system and try to understand their feeling... Which I felt what my current big boss is not into it... I have my way of leading people which is not his way... he want fast and efficient... mine for sure takes time... He want to build fear among workers... I want to build trust... haha... Trust is not build in a day, but fear can be set up in a day... trust leads to loyalty... fear leads to strike XD

My way and his way seems contrast in all ways... He try to prove his method is the best... I tried to prove him wrong... but he is the boss... let's see how my effort turns out to be...

The working "Cow"

Everyday 7.00am wake... work till 6/7pm... The routine life... hmm... no complains about that, coz I enjoy the life like this... I like the job not because I undergoing a good life in the job... but on the other hand, I was facing quite a tough time at work... haha XD 

I love it when I know I was not alone... I am appreciated... The word "appreciation" means everything to me... My strength, my will, my determination, all come from ONE source... appreciation just like the "trust" Tan Sri mentioned, need to earn... but if keep banging on my weak spot, my "trust" towards you might just collapse... "Trust" is not thing that only works from top to bottom, it works the same for bottom to top... "Appreciation" is the main factor that affect the "trust" of your comrades...

I don't hesitate to work more... to work like a cow or an ant... as long as I am happy... my strength will not go exhaust... I learn fast, adapt fast and apply fast, you don't see that in me means you don't understand me... Once a rock is place in front, the road will be tougher and might just stop someone from advancing. Worst you might just kill someone determination. Learning is fast when practically involved and applied... "Afraid" and dare not bare the responsibility will only make the learning process slow...

I admit I am not too clever... I got not much creativity... creativity is not my strength... Keep on pushing on that part actually just make my strength to weaken... I not afraid of tired... I am not afraid of dirty... I am afraid of not being "appreciated"... I can be symbolize as a cow... a hardworking but without brains animal... You say I have no brains... I am fine... you say I am not doing my job, I couldn't accept because that is all I got... When my hardworking is bypassed, I am left with nothing... If you don't need a cow, you need a chimpanzee then I need to find myself a new home... XD

I like my direct mentor, I kinda love the working environment... I love the workers that work so hard and can see my effort... I don't have much problem with them and I see them as my comrades that fight along side myself, not a comrades that fighting for me... Hopefully one day, he will realize the importance of those comrades... and change some of his mind set... All human are similar... don't treat them as aliens just because they are foreigners... 

Hmm....cow? nah.... I still prefer my bear... hahaha XD

My first month of working experience

Internship to most us... getting my 1st pay in my life... LOL... yup I never do any part time job before... This is my very 1st company to work for... Is my honor or the company honor? haha... 

First month past just like that... How many things I had learn? I duno... I just knew I am getting more and more used to the environment... adaptation is one of my strong point... so no matters how harsh the condition is, how terrible the situation are... As long as I have the will to strive on... A motivation on going, my fire goes on and on... My HOD is my idol, without him I duno how much or how long I can stay... I saw how much he put in his effort and how hard he work... but still keep getting "asah", from my 1st day of work and I saw it... I put a mindset of my own, I am here to assist... I am here to fight along side him...

I did a promise during my interview... I can and I will withstand what ever stress I will be facing... I wanted to play along side him... if really he is to leave one day... I think I will not stay there long... XD as I said I am here to assist... getting know to the line operators, they said the same thing. "Go boss pergi, saya pun balik Nepal la"... He is a very big influence to the factory... but I wonder my DGM knows that? blaming? LOL... This one I keep for my other blog... hehe

Remember back the day I went for interview... the question I asked during the interview... what is the expectation from the factory for industrial trainee... my HOD answered "we need new ideas from new fresh graduate"...yup for this I did try my best to give, and still on going I hope... my DGM answered "we don't expect anything from the industrial trainee, you are just here to learn"... haha... It seems like currently I am doing more than expectation... and he said "I don't care, you all trainee also learn and go into the line and help..." when he said that, deep in my heart, I really wanted to answer him back I am doing lots more than he think I am doing...LOL 

but as usual, my nature... before putting out any words, I will analyse my work and what impact will I get back... this sentence sure get a big BOMB...so... still better not say...XD 

Everyday kena "taruh kaw kaw" by my DGM... seems getting used but I still feel the pain sometimes... I can tolerate the stress, I can take the scolding... but I barely able to cope for saying me not doing my job... I did I he told, and yet he say no... >.< just like the interview session... I study oleochemistry, yet he say I does not study chemistry... mayb that is his "pattern"... He keep complaining his staff so bad and so inefficient... If one day, all his production team suddenly gone... what's the impact? getting new staff? will he get the same kind of hardworking staff? can he find a person that can stand his temper? haha... Guess he never thought of it... 

I always think alot... I think more than he can think... He only think for quality and output... I think for the turnover rate... His relationship with the staff, I can conclude he is not so good in it... but no doubt I respect him as my superior and he is good in controlling using "power" without taking into account of feelings... no democracy or less... Seems everytime I provoke his comments, I sure kena stop in the middle of my comment with him interupting my sentence and then bring over the issue and bye bye...=.=

I will keep improving, I am the kind of person that can't stand kena "pijak kaw kaw"... I don't like kena press... but the same thing plays in my mind... I am a better assistant without needing to make decision, I found my source of motivation, if he is gone I am gone... 

2 week passed by in Topglove F19/20

2 week passes by in Topglove F19/20 during my internship... all of us having intern here always exchange our working experience now and then... we tell and hear others factory stories... seems like every factory have their own way of running and trainning their trainee... most of them doing dipping glove and compounding more to R&D... mine going the other way... I walking management and production route...

They have their fun, I have my challenge... My mentor and my HOD both helps me alot... although most of the time I alone... (almost 80% of the day) but when I get to them... they are willing to spare their time to explain to me... a chemist doing management? haha~ that's what me as production chemist in F19/20 doing... monitor the workers... ensure all are running smoothly...but I am still starting... just going around pushing here and there on minor mistake....

I am the type of prefering management than lab work... my HOD let me choose whether lab work R&D or management? A person like me that is so into management of people during secondary onwards of course choose challeging management... I love this management although I know it will be a very tough route...A failure in lab work R&D seldom get the blame...but a small mistake in production will encounter all sort of blame and scolding from all department especially the boss - GM.... He just love to keep shoot and shoot on production...since production is the heart of the factory that attached to all department... a problem in production means will pull all department down together...

Currently been assigned a big project to do... really BIG one =.=" got me head cracking d... need find out improvement on the production line to solve defects and increase output...@@ ... many of the method done by my HOD during his fresh time... now this burden fell on me again under GM order =.= ... my last project on another one still on going and now here comes another one... let's see... hopefully I can come out with some big ideas...LOL...

On the process to try turn permanent staff too...said need to see first after one month... My work start from 8am to 5.30pm... but I never thumbprint out on 5.30pm... currently record is 5.45pm earliest coz that day sicked...latest is 6.55pm coz follow GM walk the factory for 1 hour....haha.... although I start early back late but I just enjoy my work... haha... I love the stress... I just hate the noise...XD

1st day of Internship at Top Glove F19

Wuhoo... 1st day of internship... 04 may 2011, a memorable day...~ Woke up early 6.30am, ready for my 1st day ^^ after some washing and bathing... there we go 7.30am off we go to work... On the way the factory, we saw Top Glove shift workers walking home to sleep...zzzzz... 

Hmm...1st day, don't know what should I do... Get to the guard house, bla half day to the Nepal guard... at last "saya hari pertama kerja..." solve my problem, he gave a card to punch...Hmmm, probably that card only for me to punch for that day only, tomorrow will start using finger print. Now the next task, who should I meet? So, I meet the secretary which contact me... unfortunately, she starts work at 8.30am...wait wait wait...

At last, I was given my 1st uniform to change... hehe, working here really good, no need to think what to wear to work... After changing, I was given a form... "Chuah, now we need you to go to Top Glove Factory 2 to do medical check-up..." Factory 2? OMG...I need to walk 15 minutes and it's raining outside... hehe, luckily I was quite smart to ask for an umbrella ^^

Factory 2, but where should I do my health examination? Argh.... Who cares? Just simply go in and ask... I went in the 1st office, ask the HR department... he say "you go out of the building, then turn left and go in another entrance.." another entrance? So I walk out and into another office =.= ya, it's another office. So, I just got to ask again... This time the girl pointed to the building I went before and said the clinic is just beside it with the wooden door. Gosh... I look for sometimes and ya I found the clinic. 

Done with urinary test, BMI, blood test, eye sight test, body check, blood pressure... The doctor is very friendly and funny, talking to him was so entertaining...hehe... Off I go back to my factory 19... This time I was lucky to have a colleague I don't know drove a van passed by and gave me a ride. And she told me that, actually factory 19 is actually situated just behind factory 2 and we can just use the back door =.= damn...

After I handed in my signed health report to the secretary. There we go wait for another 5 minutes... Wow, I was handed over to a pretty production/R&D chemist, Chui Yoke to bring... She took me to the operation line... tell me abit about the department and there we are in the office. I was handed a book of production handout to study... good, study again... wow... I tell you, the sound of the stripping air jet was so noisy... makes me dizzy ... My pretty mentor was very busy with the production line...I need to study myself 1st...

Hoho...without noticing the time, she told me it's lunch time d...1pm-2pm, lunch break...punch out and in again at 2pm... back to the production office,  Chui Yoke tell me, later I will attend a daily quality meeting (DQM), so you follow me up to see... gosh, 1st day of work go meeting =.=... It was a long 1 hour meeting... Done meeting, at last my dear mentor Go "free" d... actually he was still very busy just that he bring me along to busy along with him...haha~ We meet the former (glove mold) department head... get the former for my DGM Mr Puon.... Hey, I got 2 free bananas to eat...haha~

There we go...off to the production line... Again we went to QA room see defect gloves... packaging room meet the assistant supervisor... went to the dipping tank... with all the noise around... Really need the ear-plug to reduce the affect on my ears... see the whole process for the glove making... starting from acid tank till tumbler machine... was explained in full by Go. 

Unexpectedly, Go was same age as me...but he is the current head of department... wow... working for around 2 years... He was so capable I could see... managing 2 factory production line...and I was just following him around also felt very tiring... wow, 6pm...my working hours is 8am-5.30pm...now it's 6pm d...hehe... I am still at the factory... not to say, of course Go and chui yoke still around... I still need to type a daily report to hand to my DGM and mentor and all production line staff. 

Phew...at 6.38pm I hit my my card...walked back to my hostel... it's a wonderful day of experience... I get 2 set of uniform 3 pens 1 pencil 1 long ruler 1 erasers 1 stapler 1 calculator and a goody bag...haha... Can't wait for tomorrow, cause I will be given a temperature catching gun to play with...hehe~ that's all for today... fun and stress...nice....